I wanna fly

If I ever commit suicide, I think I'll do it by falling from a very tall building. I love the sensation of falling back, the letting go, losing yourself... The time between when I let go and when I hit when falling onto my bed is too short, but I love the sensation. It hurts when I land, even on my bed, but the falling itself is almost worth the pain. I don't know how painful an actual fall would be... A lot more, I would guess, than hitting a bed. If only I could fall without landing, just fall back and back and back...Forever.