Best to be the Changing Water

You said I could tell you all my feelings, tell you anything and you’d never love me any less. So I showed you my heart, deep in the part where I kept all the ways I worried about you. Now you’re gone, and the hole it left as the tide came in has weighed me down as surely as my own inability to swim.

I fucking miss you so much I’d rather not exist than go through all of this, I’d prefer to be an entire cosmos spinning full of stardust just waiting to become something again.

I never meant to do you harm, but I know I said everything all wrong. I don’t expect forgiveness for slipping into old bad habits, but I am sincerely sorry.

I will keep my promise to love you endlessly, lover friend or absentee, no matter what you tell me or where our journeys go.

Find your happy. 🖤 Not anyone else’s.