( Lyricspam! ) Who Needs Sleep by Barenaked Ladies
I'm going to need some sort of sleep aid for a few days at least, I'm thinking. I sleep, certainly. I get tired, I fall asleep, but I've had trouble getting restful, comfortable, deep sleep since I got home again. I toss and turn, my mind spinning a mile a minute even when I'm solid in sleep. I wake up with snatches of whizzing worldliness in my head, but no sign of true dreams.
I wake up feeling like I spent the night thinking about too much, like my head is full of things I haven't processed, full of too many ideas and wonders and thoughts and plans and castles. No real dreams, just snatches of probability, possibility. Nothing with form or cohesion, no coherence. Flickering bits of film, replaying moments that may or may not have happened, or are yet to happen.
I did not sleep well. Perhaps some decompression time is all I need, time to relax back into my ordinary life and the comforts of a scheduled reality. And some more forced sleep, courtesy of my friendly herbal valerian supplements and a hot cup of tea before bed.
I'm going to need some sort of sleep aid for a few days at least, I'm thinking. I sleep, certainly. I get tired, I fall asleep, but I've had trouble getting restful, comfortable, deep sleep since I got home again. I toss and turn, my mind spinning a mile a minute even when I'm solid in sleep. I wake up with snatches of whizzing worldliness in my head, but no sign of true dreams.
I wake up feeling like I spent the night thinking about too much, like my head is full of things I haven't processed, full of too many ideas and wonders and thoughts and plans and castles. No real dreams, just snatches of probability, possibility. Nothing with form or cohesion, no coherence. Flickering bits of film, replaying moments that may or may not have happened, or are yet to happen.
I did not sleep well. Perhaps some decompression time is all I need, time to relax back into my ordinary life and the comforts of a scheduled reality. And some more forced sleep, courtesy of my friendly herbal valerian supplements and a hot cup of tea before bed.
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In honor of my current state of mind... There is ( Musicspam ahead... )
I think I like this feeling. My surface isn't as calm as I'd like it to be, but my centre is centered. That's it, exactly. I'm actually -centered- now. I've always been pretty grounded, but the last few years threw even that askew and left me grasping for solidity.
I'm centered, but maybe not so grounded right now, because I feel like I'm flying. *Laughter.* One out of two ain't bad. I'm so happy right now, even when I'm exhausted and cranky. I'm PMSing for certain, and muttering angrily under my breath on a regular basis, but when I'm happy I'm just so exceedingly content that it overwhelms everything else.
Can this last for the rest of ever? Please, let it last.
I'm in love with life itself. It's the best feeling ever.
I think I like this feeling. My surface isn't as calm as I'd like it to be, but my centre is centered. That's it, exactly. I'm actually -centered- now. I've always been pretty grounded, but the last few years threw even that askew and left me grasping for solidity.
I'm centered, but maybe not so grounded right now, because I feel like I'm flying. *Laughter.* One out of two ain't bad. I'm so happy right now, even when I'm exhausted and cranky. I'm PMSing for certain, and muttering angrily under my breath on a regular basis, but when I'm happy I'm just so exceedingly content that it overwhelms everything else.
Can this last for the rest of ever? Please, let it last.
I'm in love with life itself. It's the best feeling ever.
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So, I am going to begin a new meme. Please, all of you that read my LJ, pass it on! ♥
Pick two songs that make you think of me, or that you feel describe me, (EDIT: or that describe your relationship with me...) and comment with them. Copy this meme to your own journal, along with two songs that you feel describe yourself, and I will comment with two songs for you.
Links to uploaded songs are appreciated but not required, same with relevant lyrics.
( Memetage! )
Your turn!
Pick two songs that make you think of me, or that you feel describe me, (EDIT: or that describe your relationship with me...) and comment with them. Copy this meme to your own journal, along with two songs that you feel describe yourself, and I will comment with two songs for you.
Links to uploaded songs are appreciated but not required, same with relevant lyrics.
( Memetage! )
Your turn!
My music spam for today....
Because I believe in love.
( Affirmation )
With all my heart.
Everyone send good energy to my boy, he's visiting his parents in Kosovo right now. He hates traveling to begin with, so this whole trip is a wee bit stressy. All two weeks of it. ^_~
Tht's all for today, I've gotta get back to my job search. <3 everyone!
Because I believe in love.
( Affirmation )
With all my heart.
Everyone send good energy to my boy, he's visiting his parents in Kosovo right now. He hates traveling to begin with, so this whole trip is a wee bit stressy. All two weeks of it. ^_~
Tht's all for today, I've gotta get back to my job search. <3 everyone!
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