Best to be the Changing Water

Urgghhh.

So, new job, right? New people. Awesome people.

Making friends with my coworkers. Hit it off pretty well with this one guy. I do not find him in the least attractive, and I'm honestly not that impressed by his social skills either, but we talk about useless things. Comic books, his military career... shooting the shit. We both just happen to be good at shooting the shit, and he's outgoing enough to chat with me.

He offered me a ride home, I cautiously (I don't trust people..) took it. Had him drop me off along my street, but not directly at my house. Got offered a ride to work Saturday morning, when I had to be there at 6:30 in the morning, and he was working that morning too. Swapped numbers with him, in case I changed my mind or whatever in the day between, or something changed.

He texted me to invite me out paintballing on the middling day when he knew I wasn't working, and I'd politely declined, saying I had family plans.

Got picked up Saturday (once again on my street rather than at my house, I'm extremely cautious about this because I don't exactly trust him) and everything was fine, cool, we talked a little both times he gave me a ride.

And then...

I get two text messages from him tonight, while I'm at work and he isn't. "Your Beauitful." and "Your Beauitful and Smart and nice. I like you." (Direct from my phone, there. Spelling mistakes, crazy capital letters, and all.)

Followed by a call that I didn't take (because I was AT WORK), and he didn't leave a message.

I am now convinced that he's a douchefag, was out drinking, and FUCKING DRUNK TEXTED ME.

He kept thinking I was mad at him for teasing me or whatever at work? I told him he'd know if I was mad. And boy, will he ever know that I'm mad at him.

Fucking douchefag.

I get paid vacation? Bwuh?

AWESOME.

So here I am, getting paid for three days of doing NOTHING this week, and I get to spend time with Niisan and everything!

This is incredibly fun. We went to wander around downtown, Pike Place, and then the arcade, where I blew twenty bucks like *snaps fingers* that. =] Back towards Westlake, before I realised I had forgotten my bag of things from the marketplace, and we had to go back and find it.

But we did, and we walked around some more, and it was just tons of fun just getting to hang out.

n.n

It's time to go watch Doctor Who now~ And have interesting conversation, and.. <3

I guess that's all I had to say. n_n

Well today went much better. Also, I was right about part of why yesterday sucked so fantastically much. =D

Guess what time it is!

Oh yeah. I hate my body sometimes. Dx

On the bright side of things:

As I said, today went better. I had a smoothie with so much added YUM in it that I could practically chew the protein powder. xD I had this other powder stuff in it too, and YUMMM. All my vitamins and minerals, yay! (No seriously, I love the taste of that smoothie mix stuff.)

I scrubbed and scrubbed and cleeeeaaaaaannnnned today at work, too. Even though you couldn't really tell from a quick look, but I did a lot. D< And I feel totally underappreciated for it.

Cause my supervisor asked me to do something specific, and I got caught up with a handful of customers in the HOUR between her asking me to do it, and her coming down to get my drawer and take it away... So I had done not much more than pull the freezer out from the wall and pick up the trash from behind it.

So I told her I was gonna go ahead and scrub it down, and the wall, and mop back there, while I had it pulled out. And then I would finish closing duties, and come upstairs.

Forty-five minutes later when I'm done cleaning the FUCKING GROSSSSSS space behind the freezer, putting the freezer back, knocking something behind it and having to pull it out -again- to fetch it, sweeping and mopping the rest of the floor, counting the cups, so on and so forth...

She tells me "it doesn't take forty-five minutes to close" when I get upstairs.

And then proceeds to tell me I could have been doing that cleaning earlier, during my free time... when I'd been doing other scrubbing, by the way. And BEFORE she'd asked me to do that particular thing.

I'm fucking tired of retail and foodservice. And managers.


I think I've figured out what I honestly want to do with my life. I want to work the same sort of job Grandma used to work. Something factory, something where it's all habit and muscle memory and I don't have to -think- about it, and something where I don't have to DEAL WITH FUCKING STUPID CUSTOMERS! D<

So that's my rant for this evening. ♥ to you all, and I'm gonna go grab a shower and hope my hair dries fast.

I feel gross after work. Lots of sweaty, icky work. Plus, work tomorrow is EARLY and I need a shower anyways.

LOVE! Lots of love! Ja matta ne~!

In honor of my current state of mind... There is ( Musicspam ahead... )

I think I like this feeling. My surface isn't as calm as I'd like it to be, but my centre is centered. That's it, exactly. I'm actually -centered- now. I've always been pretty grounded, but the last few years threw even that askew and left me grasping for solidity.

I'm centered, but maybe not so grounded right now, because I feel like I'm flying. *Laughter.* One out of two ain't bad. I'm so happy right now, even when I'm exhausted and cranky. I'm PMSing for certain, and muttering angrily under my breath on a regular basis, but when I'm happy I'm just so exceedingly content that it overwhelms everything else.

Can this last for the rest of ever? Please, let it last.

I'm in love with life itself. It's the best feeling ever.

Eeee~ I got to go see s00j last night! SJ Tucker = ♥! I shall have a hat made by her very hands soon enough, and I bought two of her CDs last night.

I had almost forgotten just why I had such a huge crush on her and K. I have been thoroughly reminded. x3 Stunning, the both of them, and even more so together than apart. Also, Sooj has a most lovely voice. I was very much reminded of lovely talents like Sarah McLachlan and Alanis Morissette, listening to her sing.

I was particularly stunned by a few songs, one or two of them really just caught me and drew me in. "Firebird's Child" in particular, which is made so much more powerful with a whole group singing, and with her beautiful, strong voice leading.

I do believe I may have found my faith again. I still want to research and find out more about other religions, and see if anything catches me... but sitting in that group, feeling that energy? That made me feel -right- again. Being with such a powerful group of people, feeling the energy raising during "Firebird's Child" and "Hymn to Herne" especially, it made me remember and feel a bit of that deep-rooted faith again.

So, thank you Sooj.


On to my next bit of squee: THE SUN!!! I SAWED IT! IT WUZ THER IN TEH SKIE!

W00t.

Today was gorgeous and reasonably warm out, as was yesterday, and I am well pleased with it. I can only hope it continues to be so.


On the other hand, last night was too much energy work for my out-of-practice self, and now I have the worst magical hangover evah, and my uterus hurts besides. Dx I hate being a woman sometimes. T-T So I have ended up now curled up in the den with all of everyone else and their WoWing ways. And I ought to go make the can of OJ into drinkability and have some now.

*Skitters out, then.*

I have just been thoroughly flabbergasted. ( I just realised this is turning into a full-on ramble, so here's a cut tag... )

So, that's all the rant I have the energy for right now. Three exes, three rants. I'm gonna go lose myself in music and idle games until Kureno comes online and I can whine at him.